Haters

I am a people pleaser. I want to make everyone happy. I have spent the majority of my life worrying what others think of me.  I have gone out of my way to make sure people like me because I just couldn't stand it if I knew someone didn't like me.  My life was consumed by thoughts of being good enough. I needed validation from my friends or Luis that I was doing a good job or that I looked good. I never knew how to validate myself or knew if I was doing a good enough job. Frankly, I had ZERO self confidence, no self-esteem, and I really didn't know who I was or what I wanted.
Well no  more my friends, no more. Through this process of losing weight I am discovering my voice within. I look at myself in the mirror, really look and tell myself positive things. Now, don't go thinking I am crazy, I don't talk to  myself but I am starting to notice my potential. I am actually reaching goals I have set for myself and doing things out of my comfort zone. This blog for example is something I have been wanting to do for a while and I finally just made the decision to do it. Posting the link on Facebook was a HUGE deal for me because it opened me up to the haters. The old me would have never done such a thing becasue I would have been too worried about what others thought. Maybe no one would like it, or read it, or thought my writing sucks. Well, maybe there will be someone who doesn't like it, or maybe my writing does suck but you know what? That's okay.
There will always be haters in the world. I am learning to embrace them. The only thing that really matters is how much you believe in and love yourself and I, for the first time, truly believe in myself.

I am lucky to have people in my life who are so supportive and loving. Now I can add one more person to that list...ME!